Hola

 Hola.

This is my first writing in many-many blog that I already deleted them all. So left this one.

I wish this one is not been read by many my friends, cause I will be very embarrassed.

While decide this blog name is already hard for me. I chose this one because this thing that burden me all this journey.

I hope, tonight will be my last insecurity happen to me. I compare myself to other person, or the other me that might live. All this insecurity was saved by my mom. 

She is the most precious one. I am sure my mom is a good person, God loved her.

So I believe her story on how God treat her special in holy land Mekah and Madinah

Story of boiled eggs, story of given way by unknown man in Mekah, raudah, story of all was spoken will happen there,  story of all deeds will be rewarded directly there,story of pain that dissapear when going to masjid.

Tonight, I was remembered that my happiness is by seeing other that matters to me is happy. of course all people that standy by me all this long. 

But, of course there is always temptation that looks good, but actually it is not. it looks good, like I want live that life, but actually, I won't be happy to live that life there, because happiness is already here. 

There are always people comeby and make me jeouleous of their lives, but what actually you must remember is people yard is always looks greener than ours.

So, hola!