Adulting is suck
I just arrived from short visit of my neighbor house which is my childhood friend and we kind of grew together. She shaped me. And now, she has been a mother of one year old girl. She is my friend but I feel awkward. I kind of forget how it feels like to having friend. What I am familiar now if friend from work you know like coworker. I know but friend from work is not real friend, you will find a backstabbing etc. But, it feels good to meet my old friend. Or, maybe is it because I am the only child living in my house now? Is this how it feels like no sibling? I have, but they are far away. That adulting is. You will very rare to meet your siblings and friends. Only work, work, work and problems every single day. Or office politics which I am sick of. Or maybe I just too isolate myself all this time. Is this time to go outside again? Mingling? Dating? No. I fully aware that I am in any relationship for almost 6 years? Is it trauma, still? They said "m...